its been one long rocky road i've walked so far in life. whether its cos of others that it turned out like this, or cos of me, i dont know. maybe somewhere in between, the truth can be found. in any case, the road is certainly not well travelled. personally, i wouldnt advise anyone to try. aint no path for man to walk, i swear it.
at the start, i didnt even know what love was. then when i got that figured out, i saw it as weakness and rejected it. now, i know what it is and accept it as a good thing.
that just brings another set of problems. so how is love expressed and received. it has to be communicated right?
now there are 5 different ways ppl see as acts of love, and this differs from person to person. so with each person, u have to relate to them in that manner. 5 different languages apparently, is the symbolism for this. thats quite a bit of effort. and each lang has its own nuances.
do i look i like a bloody genius to you? wait i do....hmm....in any case, its so bllody ahrd on the outset i dont know if i'll try.
love is such a complicated concept, such a hard thing to do. worse of all, we all need it. ahh woe is me.

here's the good news. i dont have to do it alone. i have a heavenly father who will guide me through what most probably is the greatest trial of my life.
thank God there is a God. i'd be floundering otherwise. Praise His Holy Name