sometimes its so hard to explain to friends what is going wrong, or why its going wrong.
its just so difficult to be nice and drive the point home at the same time.
maybe its a matter of perspective, maybe if i didnt see everything as a stroke of a blade, be it a slash or a thrust, things wouldnt be this way.
but thsi si just the way i am, and i guess i'll have to work with it. hey, the perspective is a good thing., when there's a problem.
but the thing is, its too cold, too incisive. cut staight to the festering rancid part fo the whole issue. no prelude, no anacrusis, no nothing. lets just get there and get it over with. then we have mroe time for solutions. somehow, that doesnt seem to be they way most ppl do things. ppl need warm up[ time, time to adjust, time to ready themselves, brace themsleves. its so hard to adapt. so hard to be patient. to wait. its downright frustrating at times.
assassin's perspectives just dont seem to work on this one...i have to admit i'm trying new ways, ways untried and untested. just praying as hard as i can they dont backfire in my face. but even if they do, its just a compounded problem that has to be dealt with.

how do i say what needs to be said effectively without being too incisive, too brutal, too cold. Only heaven knows. now i pray heaven starts talking. else on sunday, things might just come out wrong.

Lord, i need you now. i need you to be a source of strength, of inspiration and of aid to a dear friend. Lord i need you now.

Have you got a minute for your son father???
Praise the Goodness of your Name Lord. Please be there when planets collide. i pray. amen.