i forgot. sum of fav quotes from hc dfeste.

1. your concept of pain is somewhat lacking
2. life is like pampers. full of shit.
3. why ou so lidat?
4. honey, we're out of milk

wacthed the HC dramafeste yeserday evening. met a lotta old friends. seemes like the entire J! cast last year came back to help in one way or another.
since i was the only one to switch JCs, i got marinalised. but i got a warm welcome coming back. it was lovely. great plays all.
to every time i reminesce, i miss my past.....
sighz....

this is coming a little late. thoughts on Raffles Adventure at Palawan. aka Rave.
in any case. a few opening comments.
1. thats a world first
2. quite insane really
3. too bad i couldnt play soccer. why do i keep injuring my toe?
4. talent time was pretty interestng
so since i spent the whole day watching talent time, i'll talk about it.
i liked a lot of the performances. we have quite some songbirds in RJC. wonder why i dont hear em more often. must have another wall of ice i havent torn down yet.
come on, this was years ago. how many did i put up anyway? damn it.
I found most of the bands rather entertaining. some pretty good talent there. smooth music, soft beats mostly. the Hotties rock. well almost all of them, 'cept for that one insect band. they suck. what was it my friend said? oh yeah, thats what happens when people sing with their biceps. don;t get me wrong, i think biceps are fine. just that they shouldnt be equated with everything else thats good. its kinda like, got bicep, will travel. nuh-uh.
second thing i gotta say. we had so many rap acts this year. ok, so eminem is popular. damn. he warned us in his second album about all these wannabes. they suck. it aint bad if u suck but u try. but these idiots just prostitute good music. gosh, dont u get it when u suck? as in suck big time? u cant rap. give up. go home. look. Tupac is turning in his grave already. Notorious is retching, and he's dead too! the rap game aint easy to play fools.
late reflections. then again, i've been driving bad rap outta my head with some other music. so there.

sometimes its so hard to explain to friends what is going wrong, or why its going wrong.
its just so difficult to be nice and drive the point home at the same time.
maybe its a matter of perspective, maybe if i didnt see everything as a stroke of a blade, be it a slash or a thrust, things wouldnt be this way.
but thsi si just the way i am, and i guess i'll have to work with it. hey, the perspective is a good thing., when there's a problem.
but the thing is, its too cold, too incisive. cut staight to the festering rancid part fo the whole issue. no prelude, no anacrusis, no nothing. lets just get there and get it over with. then we have mroe time for solutions. somehow, that doesnt seem to be they way most ppl do things. ppl need warm up[ time, time to adjust, time to ready themselves, brace themsleves. its so hard to adapt. so hard to be patient. to wait. its downright frustrating at times.
assassin's perspectives just dont seem to work on this one...i have to admit i'm trying new ways, ways untried and untested. just praying as hard as i can they dont backfire in my face. but even if they do, its just a compounded problem that has to be dealt with.

how do i say what needs to be said effectively without being too incisive, too brutal, too cold. Only heaven knows. now i pray heaven starts talking. else on sunday, things might just come out wrong.

Lord, i need you now. i need you to be a source of strength, of inspiration and of aid to a dear friend. Lord i need you now.

Have you got a minute for your son father???
Praise the Goodness of your Name Lord. Please be there when planets collide. i pray. amen.

its been one long rocky road i've walked so far in life. whether its cos of others that it turned out like this, or cos of me, i dont know. maybe somewhere in between, the truth can be found. in any case, the road is certainly not well travelled. personally, i wouldnt advise anyone to try. aint no path for man to walk, i swear it.
at the start, i didnt even know what love was. then when i got that figured out, i saw it as weakness and rejected it. now, i know what it is and accept it as a good thing.
that just brings another set of problems. so how is love expressed and received. it has to be communicated right?
now there are 5 different ways ppl see as acts of love, and this differs from person to person. so with each person, u have to relate to them in that manner. 5 different languages apparently, is the symbolism for this. thats quite a bit of effort. and each lang has its own nuances.
do i look i like a bloody genius to you? wait i do....hmm....in any case, its so bllody ahrd on the outset i dont know if i'll try.
love is such a complicated concept, such a hard thing to do. worse of all, we all need it. ahh woe is me.

here's the good news. i dont have to do it alone. i have a heavenly father who will guide me through what most probably is the greatest trial of my life.
thank God there is a God. i'd be floundering otherwise. Praise His Holy Name